Oncology Eve

Not sure what to do with myself tonite. It is Oncology Eve, the night before Kathy meets with the Oncologist to find out her prognosis and treatment plan.
 I should take down the Christmas tree but I want/need another night of the "magic" in my house. I could definitely use a drink but Oncology Eve is a sobering event. It is a new year but I am not moving forward...just frozen, wishing I could turn back time. Wanting with all my being to wake up tomorrow from a very bad dream...